Then theweeks earnings are spent in common at home
within two or three days. He is especially entranced by the magic glimmer spread
over thebig cities.
The French boy is noteducated on purely objective
principles.
Within a few weeksit decided my future and put an
end to the long-standing familyconflict.
Little by little hebecomes indifferent to this
everlasting insecurity.
Therein lay a spring that never dried
up.
From this point of view fate had been kind to me.
There is no possibility of learning any lessons at home.
He orderedthat I should give up attendance at the
REALSCHULE for a year at least.
Little by little hebecomes indifferent to this
everlasting insecurity.
Then athird time; and now it is probably much
worse. Therefore it was a world that had very littlecontact with the world of
genuine manual labourers.
He is especially entranced by the magic glimmer
spread over thebig cities.
That hunger was the faithful guardian which never
leftme but took part in everything I did.
I became more andmore convinced that I should never
be happy as a State official. Within a few weeksit decided my future and put an end
to the long-standing familyconflict. I hoped to forestall fate, asmy father had done
fifty years before.
Reading isnot an end in itself, but a means to an
end.
And now this young specimen of humanity entersthe
school of life.
No, the sentimental attitude would be the wrong one
to adopt. When I left the Hansen Palace, on the SCHILLER PLATZ, I was
quitecrestfallen.
Therein lay a spring that never dried
up.
Somehow or otherI would have to earn my own bread.
At the same time my interest in architecture wasconstantly increasing. No, the
sentimental attitude would be the wrong one to adopt. When I was in my thirteenth
year my father was suddenly taken from us.
I hoped to forestall fate, asmy father had done
fifty years before.
For hours and hours I could stand in wonderment
before the Opera and theParliament. That hunger was the faithful guardian which
never leftme but took part in everything I did.
It was because I had such a professor that history
became myfavourite subject. I think that theMILIEU in which I then lived considered
me an eccentric person. He understood betterthan any other the everyday problems
that were then agitating our minds. Those among whom I passed my young days belonged
tothe small bourgeois class.
But itappeared to him then as if that longing were
all in vain.
Since then I have extended thatfoundation only very
little, and I have changed nothing in it.
I hoped to forestall fate, asmy father had done
fifty years before.
Otherwise only a confused jumble of chaotic notions
willresult from all this reading.
My present occupation therefore was in linewith the
profession I aimed at for the future.